Hello everybody. Im new to this site, after almost two months of reading & trying to sort my body out now I guess im ready to speak…
So im 32, im very healthy. I go gym, walking, I don’t smoke or drink and I am long gone a party girl. My weekends are spent at work, I work in the entertainment business – so TV extras, modelling, promo, and I have just started a business as a mermaid where you can hire me for your events such as big venue events or kids parties. I moved to London after travelling in Dec. I have a failry new boyfriend who lives in Hollywood – LA. Hes in the show-business side of work & my time is split between working and flying to see him as his job doesn’t allow him the freedom I have.
I was feeling very happy with how my life was panning out this year. After going through a tough time last year with my health and contracting a nerve disease that im dealing with more than I hopes I would. I figured a little pick me up with some wrinkle killer would help maintain my image – having a partner in Hollywood probably didn’t help, so I took the plunge June 8th.
I went to a dentistry called Ecculadent in Mill Hill. Saw a lady who talked me into having 3 areas not just the 2 I originally wanted. I had DYSPORT. Id previously had Botox twice before with no issues. Blundered into this newer – cheaper toxin and within 24hrs felt weird.
Day 1 My eyes went blurry first.
Then my vision changed – it was as though the floor was moving & I was drunk…without being drunk.
Then back of my head hurt – deep intense headache.
Day 2 my neck went stiff. I thought id slept wrong so didnt think much of it…just took pain killers.
Day 3, the pain and stiffness crept down throughout my back & my ears felt full/blocked – like I was on a plane and coulnt pop them. By now I as worried… I called the injector & was told there was no reports of this & it was unlikely to do with the Dysport.
My headaches were strong, my eyes were all over the place, I felt unsteady on my feet due to the visual disturbances I was seeing and then to top it off I got full all over body weakness.
On June 18th I was admitted to hospital
I couldn’t walk or see properly, my ears had gone full and the pressure in my head was unbearable. I was shaking, my chest was tight and I was finding it hard to breath in proper breaths. They kept me in on a heart monitor.
The next day I noticed the white pillow was covered in hair – on closer inspection I reaslised it was eyebrow hair. When I touched them in the bathroom mirror, they were falling out at the touch of my finger.
I saw a few Dr’s. They were all different in opinion – one was adamant it was just anxiety nothing more and was very blunt with me. By now id researched that you could get Boulism from this & I requested a test & he told me there wasn’t a test for this disease. I just looked at him in disbelief. Then he told me even if I were to have it, the anti toxin is so exspensive they only give it to people who cant breath. So basically I was ok to just suffer the list of things I was experiencing and be hooked to a hospital bed for the night. There was another Dr that tested my muscles by doing a crouching test. I failed as I couldn’t get back up by myself. My legs had stopped working. No strength. But he still refused to help me. So I stayed overnight by myself with no visitors as I don’t have an real friends in the city yet…
When I got home things steadied. I had to see my Doctor and he prescribed me anti anxiety and sleeping pills. I had now got insomnia – and when I tried to sleep, my eyes would roll round in my head by themselves. Did anybody else have this? I have had to go onto sleeping pills just so I can actually GET to sleep! Without them id be awake all night every night.
I was so unwell I had to cancel my trip to visit my BF. He was upset & didn’t take it so well. Our phone conversations dwindelled into depressing, negative & argumentative talk that sometimes wore me to the bone. He didn’t understand I honestly think and as much as hed contest it, he was tough on me & I didn’t think id see him again. They say men who hurt get angry – well I put up with anger ontop of all my symptoms for a month. It sucked from every angle. I had people telling me “You look fine” and “youre eating well” and “you don’t look sick” – it was like everybody thought I was just putting it on. It angers me to this day.
Anyway, I got that angry about it all I got my ass on a plane symptoms and all and flew to Poland to get the MOUSE TEST. It was hard work as I was ill, and I couldn’t speak their language but somehow I got by as I met a polish lady who just happened to have ‘Mermaid’ written on the front of her top – she came out of nowhere & asked me if I needed help. Because of this lady I got to the right place and got tested. I havnt had my results yet though… waiting is a killer. I only know of two other girls who got their tests… One is my friend who helped me on this quest. So to both of these girls – thankyou.
Sine then I have to write about TRAINS – IF YOU USE TRAINS this may affect your muscles in your body. The pressure in the cabin changes due to the speed you go & tunnels make it worse. I went out of London on an hour train ride, to see a friend. straight away on the trip I felt like my chest and throat were closing up – I couldn’t breath, my ears went blocked and my eyes were going to burst out my head!! The next day all muscle weakness returned and I felt awful. Was bed bound for another 5 days afterwards. Then my face and arm went numb – This is something to think about. Pressure in trains made me bad. Does anybody else have this or know about it?
Also I wasn’t to ask if anybody has experienced any changes with other parts of the body? My question is about BREAST AUGMENTATION…
it seems like they have both started to wrinkle. I know I cant get creasing/wrinkling of the actual implant as its a hard gel that doesn’t move/fold/crease. Its my body building scar tissue around the implant – BUT THIS HAS ONLY HAPPENED SINCE THE BOTOX! Im GUTTED!!! What on earth is that about? Theyre not new but now I can see it in the mirror when I don’t wear a bra. Its since my muscle weakness… ive had them 3 years without ANY issues and now without a bra they have changed and are showing ripples. I noticed this after a month after injections. :( Did anybody else have this?
Alsi I should say I too have had a dent develop in my forehead. Its not noticeable in daylight and to random people but I see it even in the mirror. Its at its worse when im on camera. It breaks my heart bc I had this toxin put into my face thinking id make me look better for my job and my man… and now ive got all sorts of weird stuff happening.
Im intolerant to most foods so eating veg isn’t easy and I get by eating the same old stuff constantly. I have currently one month after injections gone from 9st 2lb to 8st 6lb. in 30 days. Im a size 8, 5’6.5 so look quite tiny already. I do take vitamins to try help and drink mounds of water. Im thirsty loads anyways…. which reminds me.
I hope that this message reaches out to others and can help in any way. I am plagued with the idea im going to develop more symptoms – but for now im glad to report I found the strength and courage to get to LA to see my man. My muscle weakness has gone & getting on a plane didn’t hurt my ears. I avoid trains & have refused to to to the theme park with him as my ears & eyes couldn’t deal with it… Im taking it easy. We managed to go on a bike ride along the beach last week and I was ok. I just pop pills for my headache and as always am on sleeping pills to force myself to get some rest. Anxiety is passing – I have only needed pills for the plane ride so far in a week ive not needed them. Im trying to remind myself each time I feel weird its just the toxin.
My heart is with anybody suffering from this toxin. And I prey we all get better and can learn from our mistakes. I think my symptoms aren’t as bad as some people on here – so I still sometimes consider myself lucky. My boyfriend keeps telling me im not sick and im getting better – making it to LA was ab ig step granted and im fighting with myself silently. He asks frequently what im thinking or if im ok and its whats occupying my thoughts. ALL THE TIME. My muscles moving in my head don’t allow for me to stop thinking about it much… But I do ask myself am I better?
Is what im experiencing “side effects” like my doctors and boyfriend say… or something more sinister? I don’t suppose anybody knows. Its just a waiting game.
I just want my body back to normal – expression lines and all. xx