hi everyone.. i have not been able to be here much and wanting to write an update.. things are sooooo much better than they were this time last year!!! my heatlth is healing my mind is healing (slowly) a lot of my face has healed but i have to say the dents really arent changing very much. as the rest of my face heals they look less drastic, but they still look pretty noticeable. as i regain more normal movement in the rest of my face, my entire face looks more normal.. but, it is definitely permanently scarred. (so kris, i know you have face problems that are -not- dents, most of those face problems for me, have healed!!!! the sunkeness is better though its still there a bit. my eyes are their normal sized and color again, and i have most of my movement back… the puffiness has really almost completely gone too. so i think a lot of your problems will still heal kris!!!) if i could just cut off my forhead with a chainsaw (my dearest fantasy) id look pretty normal at this point, except for my body being stiff and sore as a million year old person.
for now though i have noticed a couple more people coming here with dents in their face.. this is a problem not everyone gets, but certain people just seem to get specific damages to the injected muscles on top of everything else. if this is you, maybe you could discuss your story here so we could all compare notes? i saw some peopel asking about it but the posts have been buried a bit..
for those wondering most of these dents are caused by ‘muscle recruitment’ this means that when your brain realizes that your face is paralyzed, it cant make its normal movements…. and cause the brain is very creative it will quickly ‘recruit’ and ‘reroute’ other nerves and muscles to do the job. this is normally a good thing, but in our case, it caused these horrible injuries on our face that probably, unfornately, wil be very hard to get rid of as its not just a muscular injury but a rewiring of the brain. its a comlicated and multilayered injury unfortunately and the little ive been able to learn about it, most drs are totally clueles. (anyone surprised?? )
i found one very rich dr in beverly hills who does actors a lot.. he imediately told me this was ‘muscle recruitment’ and called it a ‘hallmark of awful plastic surgery’ he said it was 100% caused by bad technique and was totally preventable. he said it was the most common undersirable side effect after a frozen face, he said it as more common than droopy eyes. i asked why most drs dont know what it is and he said straight out ‘they are not sophisticated enough to understand what they are seeing’. (or if they know, they deny it, becuase its well known among those who recognize it, that its a side effect that does -not- go away)
i have tried the frownies, they worked very well for a number of months and then just didnt work anymore.. the dent became too deep for the frownies to affect it :< but while they worked, they were a life saver.
massage helps, exercise helps etc, and wearing my hair over my face, literally prevented me from killing myself a few years ago… my bangs are my total security blanket right now. however i found soemthing this week that i really want to tell people about.. im basically writing this post just for this its somethign called 'dermaflage' its a silicone based makeup for covering scars.
i bought some and tried it and im sooo impressed….. it fills indentations and scars almost invisibly… its nothing but a little silicon, it peels right off when you are done with it. its such a mental relief to be able to go out and just not think about how weird i look.. it really, really works well.
so… for those wondering about facial dents.. id like us all to get together and compare notes a bit, one thing im really curous about, did anyone -ever- have their dents go away. and also, have you notices any correlation between stuff you do, and improvement. in other words im interested to see if theres any diference in the rate of improvement, between peopel who did lots of stuff to try to fix it, or peopel who just left it alone.. im jsut curiuos if any of this effort actually helps or if its just liek the rest of this stuff, you'll get better or not no matter what you do.. ive done a lot to help myself with this, and its made a difference to the rest of my face problems, but the dents remain. i really cant tell if they are better, or worse, or what cause they continually change. its really going to be a mental releif to just cover them with silicion for a while, and just put it out of my mind even more.. if i had a good camera i would post pics of how well it works but im not sure i can show it well.. but hoestly, dent pepole, DERMAFLAGE im recommending it!!!!!!!!!!!! its =totally= brilliant. its like, almost making me feel normal again.
at least thats one les thing to worry about while you are deathly ill and losing your mind, and sometimes thats a really great thing…
i know that kris (a very awesome poster here) has been really down about her face problems and kris i want to tell you that all my other face problems are so much better.. i know that yours will improve too.. the muscle recruitment is the only facial injury that just doesnt seem to go away. everything else is healing, though its like watching paint dry in the worst way……. and im just wondering what has been others experience with this.
i saw other people writing about facial dents but its hard to find all the posts so i was hoping to start a new thread for it here. :}}
i also want to say something too, sometimes theres a bit of an attitude that problems with the face are 'not as bad' as our health issues.. or like 'well i realized that my health was the only important thing and i just dont care what i look like' well if thas your attitude, good for you… really.. but not everyone feels that way, and thats ok, and thats normal, and theres nothing wrong with that. some people -do- still care how they look, and facial abnormalitly can be a very socially isolating issue, and for some people, thats just a bigger deal that it is for others. so please, anyone who wants to say something like 'well i dont care how i look thats nothign compared to my health' jsut remember thats really not always the case with everyone. if you are ok with your face being messed up thats great, but not everybody is ok. we have to be sick as hell AND look like freaks…. so, its really, really not that great to have facial deformities too, on top of everything else we have to deal with. just wanted to mention that, and for some people, its really a big problem socially and mentally.
theres also something ive found recently called 'neuromuscular retraining' this is for people who had facial paralysis from bell's palsy. when this happenes there is often muscle recruitment and crossed nerves when things recover, and theres is a very new body of therapy that deals with this, retrianing your muscles and nerves to move correctly after paralysis, as well as retraining muscles that have learned to move incorrectly, to move correctly again… also, theres is a lot of good information about healing from facial paralysis on bells palsy sites, where its been well studied and is well known about, as opposed to botox injury, which nobody knows anything about…. so i have been using some of htese techniques and feel they are very applicable to this injury. this can be learned about on bell's palsy sites but its a very new science. but, this is yet another avenue for helping us heal from all this.
ok dent people, please identify yourselves.. i want to hear what your experience has been :}} and we can compare notes. thanks you so much everyone.. i can say totally things are so so much better than this time last year. even my face is so so so much better. so, that much, is good news.. hope to hear form other face club members, the club nobody wants to be part of… :}}} and i REALLY want to recommend this dermaflage oh my god i love it…. take care..